Lost

I fought with Jon. Though I don't think it can be called fighting if the other person doesn't reply you. More like a cold war shit. I don't know what I'm talking about. I don't know what I'm doing. I accidentaly didn't reply Sab, I swear I was watching t.v and I just lost track of time. God everything is snowballing out of porpotion. I can't do this anymore.

Im going to meet her now, and settle everything.

What I have done?

I may have alienated the one person who means the whole world to me. I can't to anything right. She deserves to have better friends than me. This is a repeat of secondary school all over again. Where beneath the words of forgiveness spoken, there's an undercurrent of anger and hurt. Can you ever possibly forgive someone fully? I don't know. Maybe.

I hope we can hash things out. Because fuck, she means a lot to me. She's the one I can go to. And I hurt her.

Now I have to fix things. I don't know if things will ever be the same between us anymore.

But I want it to, so badly.

Fuck. What have I done?