I'm Always Late With My Words

I should have told you.

If you run as fast as you can with your memories of me, you'll catch me.

I should have told you, but I never really could. I missed you. I tried so hard, but you really never cared. I'm always late with my words. You always misled me.

Run away and play your games. You hide so well that I can't find you. I'll wait. Then laugh as the trees burn down around you. I should have told you, but I never really cared. You got the worst of me. Its a shame, that you're still lying here, broken. In this moment, everything seems so clear to me. You meant nothing to me you see. Nothing.

When time passes, let me go so I can find a way to live.

You always got the worst of me.

There are those days when you feel a stabbing amount of hate for the idiot who broke you. You feel like screaming, and shoving their faces into the dirt. No? Well its just me I guess. I'm volatile, unstable, emotionally chaotic, and chronically, i tend to overreact.

There are those days that I wish you were still here. There are days where its unbelivably hard not to think back. Then I feel so stupid for feeling that way, because you never wanted this in the first place. Its disgusting what you did to me, and yet here I am, writing about memories long dead and forgotten. I feel like a fool. You're not worth putting myself in these situations. Your clever words mean nothing more to me than a lot I've heard in a movie. I keep pushing myself even though I can't take it at all.

I fell flat on my face too many times, left with the memories of a love lost. I hate you. 

Now you cry, now you need me. If you thought I would leap into your arms every time I see your face, you should've tried harder. Go on, prove it to me, show me that you gave me the world. Maybe you should have tried harder.

Its just like you to wander off, always looking for what you lost. I'm tired of it. I don't want to be alone. There is more to this I know, I will make it out. 

She's just like him, spoilt rotten by the lies she's been feed.

You're Not Alone. I wish it was true. I can't live my life waiting for you. I can't wait for forever. 

Speak Low If You Speak Love. Whisper softly in my ear, baby, our love was always a secret.

Oh baby, we can disappear away, away from here. Can you hear me? Tell me, whisper softly in my ear, they'll never ever know.

Those goddamned kids got nothing on me. Well I know who I am, and now YOU'LL never know.

 

Some times I feel like i'm from another world. And the things I want seem impossible. Because people will tear us apart. But at the bottom of our hearts, the dream's still alive. And I'll never forget. i'll never let your words walk all over me. I'm done listening to your lies.

Its me the that you'll never know. Don't make me be myself around you. Feel the pain that I never show, and I hope you know its never healing. Its too late, to say I told you so, but I told you so.

Why should I care? You were never there. I was so alone. You need to listen. You're not going anywhere.

Today's post makes no sense at all, its just thoughts strung together in a very non linear, abstract way. But if you were me, you'd get what I'm trying to say, If you're him, you'll know excatly what I'm saying. You have made harder just to go on.

Thats what you get when you let your heart win.

Keep me a secret. 

I keep my secrets safe, I keep them hidden from you. 

I won't tell if you won't. 

(I keep my secrets safe-Saosin, You'll never take us Alive-Madina Lake, Speak Low If You Speak Love-My American Heart, You're Not Alone-Saosin)