when its easier to lie.
I can't keep it in anymore. I can't cope. I'm only 17, and I have no way of being able to cope with the ten types of crazy that I face in school. I thought the crazy would stop, after getting out of secondary school, and away from girls, but apparently, the crazy never stops. I found out so much about my friend, and I don't know what to believe, what to do, how to act, what to say, nothing.
I should have been honest with her, but I couldn't bring myself to do that to her, not when literally everyone left her.She only has me, but I think I'm not enough anymore, because I cannot do this. I'm so sorry if I'm being selfish, but I cannot do this. I cannot put all my trust and faith into one person, who has lied to me. I'm not even going to say anything, because its besides the point. Its just that I honest to god cannot handle everyone putting their problems on me anymore. I realised that, thats what I did in secondary school, and saying that it didn't end too well would be an understatement. I don't want to go through with everything all over again.
What I really wanted to say to her was "I'm so sorry, but I can't do this anymore." But I held my tongue, bit back my words and let her talk it out.
I just don't know anymore.
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