Winter's gone and I still can't sleep
Summer's on the way
At least that's what they say
But these clouds won't leave
I'm in the mood for sad songs, and when that happens, it means that i'm usually inspired to write. To take out every emotion that I've ever felt, and try to translate into words. If I were an artist, I'd describe my mood as being raging red, calm blue, and regret filled yellow. I've made a huge mistake. I've lost something that I can't take back, something that was supposed to be special, but in a moment of teenage angst, insecurity and disability to think through choices I lost. In a moment of anger, I projected my anger out, and in the end, I only ended up hurting myself so badly.
I can't tell anyone about it, not even Sab, because I feel so disgusted about what happened, and thinking about it just makes me relieve the the ordeal, and I just want to curl up and cry,
Only one person knows about it, and he won't help me.
I don't know why, but I do know that I brought this entire thing onto myself. Its painful, and I have to live with it for the rest of my life. I made a huge mistake, and I just want to take it back. i want things to go back to the way they were.
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