Big Time

This week as been a week of big times.

Big surprises, big disappointments, big choices.

So my parents had a chalet, apparently it was part two of my birthday celebration, and it was supposed to be both for my family and friends, but none of my friends turned up. I was sad, and my uncle, who is awesome talked to me about it. He said I shouldn't focus on it, and instead have fun with my family, and I did. It was like really fun, we played games, went swimming, and sat around, trading embarrsing stories, well it was mainly the adults telling stories of us(the kids) when we were younger. All I have to say is, wait till its your birthday, I'll get information from my grandparents. Then we'll see who's embarrssed.

Muhahahaha.

I always thought it was funny when people laughed like that.

Anyway, I made the choice to go out with my ex on monday, because I was lonely and bored and alone. I know, horrible reasons. But what the fuck ever. We went to Borders, where I spent a whopping $200+ on books. My ex is the only guy, no scratch that, the only person who'll follow me to go book shopping. He's awesome like that(: though he can be horrible at times.

Its one whole big question mark when it comes to him and I. We're both so different, yet so similar, and its just so easy to like him. Its real easy to hate him too, when he's being a total jerk face. Him and I, we're way too destructive to ever be in a normal, healthy relationship. Its like when we're together, there's no one else, its just all-consuming, and its dangerous for us both. He and I, we'll always love each other, it just varies at different times. Its crazy, but its what we have.

Anyway, it was sweet of him to follow me(: and he was set on coming to the chalet, but there was no way Id have him and my relatives in the same room. My parents would be okay, but if I brought guy, alone, there's no way in hell any if my relatives would have liked that. They'd probably be all scandalised and stuff. Boring people.

So despite my ex's coaxs to get out of the house, I have been holed up in my room, reading my new books. Love them, like this awesome book, Freeze Frame, and another, Fallen. I love books, and I'm glad I've got time to read. My friends haven't texted me yet.

I guess we're drifting apart.

Its sad, cuz I don't want to, but its not up to me. Sigh.